A-L-I-N-A! : 2013

Friday, 5 April 2013

excited again

Whooap tmr is going to be our first rmun birefing hooray.
and I'm lunching with rakesh after the briefing and we're going to talk about Hair for Hope!!
Oooooh so excited.
And yes I know no one reads this so thats good cause no one will comment and I won't need to reply, hence lesser time online yay.

Ok.
Bye.
I am excited for the briefing tmr yay

After that is canoeing training fml why. I don't want to go ok. I HATE training. And everything and everyone except my teammates.

BUT ON THE HAPPY GOOD POSITIVE SIDE, ITS THE LAST TRAINING FOREVER.

LAST TIME IN A KAYAK HAPPY ALINA IS HAPPY.

FINALLY OUT FROM THIS NIGHTMARE OK. I FEEL THE JOY

Thursday, 4 April 2013

Hey do you remember

Oh I remember my FIRST post here was on 2012 SJI Carnival ahahahhaa.
Look whats coming up soon, 2013 SJI Carnival!!!
Ok honestly I feel like a maniac talking and expressing myself here.

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Oh hi I just realised I owe this blog the rest of my pathetic pictures of my trip to Taiwan last year.

Hahaha no I am too lazy and busy to even update the photos ok bye

Excitement!

oh yea and besides those rants I actually do have some stuff I am actually excited about-

1. RMUN. Pretty excited! This will probably be my last MUN hurhurhur. And yea I do know SOME people there so everything's going to be fun!!! I hope!!!

2. Hair for hope! YES FINALLY GOING TO SHAVE all this hair. WHOOP WHOOP. You guys should shave too! Its for a good cause and like y'know raise awareness for children cancer!! :)

3. NICC cause it will be my last official day as a canoeist!!!!! I am finally stepping down, do you know how elated I am. Away from this nightmare, finally. Rejoice!!

4. SJI Carnival. I still haven't found anyone to go with cause someone ditched me and some others have not confirmed with me so I am a lonely soul and I have no friends so no one wants to go with me cause I am a pathetic loser ok. And those that went last year are going for ACSI IB Open house. I really wanted to go for the open house too. BUT GUESS WHO HAS SPEECH DAY FINE BE THAT WAY. SO I had to choose between SJI and ACSI. Hey look its SJI's last year at their pretty campus so duh obviously I have to go!!! So yea awman, Valerie has decided to go to the IB open house instead. Yea no one loves me k I reiterate this no one cares i am going to have a funeral with myself only present. Just kidding I am sure all of you my readers will be there (DO I EVEN HAVE READERS AHAHA F.NO) Swaati might be going so at least I won't be alone but this will mean that. Oh no. Swaati and I will have to be friends. HAHAHAH KIDDING LA WE WERE ALWAYS FRIENDS.
So yea. And Yvette and Alexus told me they might too so. :) But maybe different timing I have no damn idea. Cries cause I am a sad girl. I do have SJI friends there but. we're not very close and I don't feel comfortable being too close to boys who I am not even close with ok what am I talking about, I myself am confused. Yea we're like the HIBYE/SMS/ kind of friends so its going to be damn awks if like y'know I SUDDENLY start hanging out with them. (except kai feng ok he's the only one I think I talk to on a regular basis and I actually don't mind but then he'll obviously mind if I follow him around the school right) and the Sji mun people I am more comfortable with them but they obviously have THEIR OWN FRIENDS right. SO sobs sobs I am 5eva alone.
I really hope Alicia and Cheryl can do come (especially Cheryl, she's been to the past 2 sji carnivals with me its the memories and tradition we must uphold ok)
Yes and Alicia went for the first one.
Oh and I want Dana to come too.
Cause we went together last year, we had fond memories :') I think.
Plus my juniors!
But now I am not exactly close to them so they might not want to come with me sobs sobs.
Anyway the whole sec 4 canoeing should just go. Nuff said hahahahaa.
I think they were the FIRST few people I asked leh since last year hurhurhur.

5. Nothing. Cause my life is boring and meaningless.

6. The end of O'levels.

Bye. I desperately need twitter soon.

Ranting cause I deactivated my twitter acc.

empty promises.
all talk.
no action.

you have your difficulties but.

this was planned months ago.
and you said yes.

As the day draws closer,
you give me a no.

I do feel angry
but more of disappointment.

Its like you say yes to everything first and then pull out as the day draws nearer.

empty sweet talks.

Loads of times you said yes and then you don't do anything about it.

I am not being self centered which is why I am not forcing you

but I feel a tinge of unhappiness and disappointment that you have failed me in one of the most important days of the year.

you brought my feelings up and excited that you were coming and then you crush them with a simple no.

I know you need your own space and all like catching up on your studies.

I do understand alright.

I want you to do well too.

But you should have started studying from the start and not wait till you get these grades and start canceling your plans with people.

"I'll work hard" empty words you have used them one to many times that I have lost faith in this phrase every single time you say it.

thats it.

I am just being really sad cause you actually agreed to come initially and now you just wiped away our plans.

Goodbye.

I have enough of this shit.

I have a gut feeling that our trip to bangkok is not going to work out and we'll all just stay in singapore.

I have a feeling.

In a few months time I will come back to review this guess and if its right, then I reiterate my stand that I am not going to plan any shit with you cause we get no conclusion.

Sunday, 31 March 2013

random updates from the confused soul

NJCC was um ok I participated and obviously I got first from the back duh.

I didn't train for 3 weeks before the comp hello? what do you expect?
And I wasn't in any mood to take photos so.

Yea

and it was stupid when I texted you good job and you didn't even reply me. Hey don't you have any courtesy to reply thank you? or sth or some shit like that.

</3 </3 </3 and why won't you say hi to me anymore.

do you hate me that much

fuck this shit man.

i am fucking fed up with this. Its like I tell myself to get over you but no I can't.

Its been the same throughout the 2 years I got to know you. 2 years? I think so.

the little things you used to do last time made my day ok ( like saying hello or smiling)

and now you don't do anything its heartbreaking.

you even ignore me, am i worth ignoring, hello?

its painful.

Oh yes and i went new york last month.

It was GREAT. I rarely took photos cause I am a bloody lazy ass and I just wasn't in the mood.

When I take photos I must have THE mood or else fml I won't do it.

NHSMUN was awesome and all.

People are really nice ily!

Then I came back to this harsh reality.

3 tests in a day.

I scored F9 for Bio, Amath and Physics.

I obviously didn't study for those subjects.

Hello how do you expect us to study in new york? you crazy?

Oh fortunately I top my emath class in Emath but I didn't study so I actually felt kind of bad so.

Oh oh.

Anyway, I did put in loads of effort for chem consistently so.

I scored my first A in a major exam (CT are major exams ok they're like CA)!

Finally.

Throughout my Sec 3 year I have NEVER scored an A before in ANY subjects.

And now I scored an A2.

Fun fact: I scored an E8 > C5 > A2

Yup I jump 3 grades all the time praise the lord.

Oh and yes I have changed church.

I actually enjoy this one.

It used to be a drag and I will be overwhelmed with unwillingness to go for church.

But after cheryl persuaded me to go for one of her church services, I decided this is IT.

I actually like the atmosphere and the people.

They're really nice I actually like this!.

I was kind of unwilling to go to cheryl's at first but since i was free that afternoon and since I made a promise to god that i'll visit church once a month, I decided to go.

And yes I think I can go to church on a regular weekly basis from now onwards!! :)

I am quite happy about that.

Let's see if I have anything else.

Oh I created an ask.fm to entertain myself.

Its fun..

To kill my boredom, perhaps you should go ask me crap there.

I'll be more than happy.

ok I think I have nothing.

One more! I went to the F&B expo on good friday and ate a lot of food and helped my mum with her stall. I think business is doing fine so praise the lord again.

I took photos but because I spent my time eating (and growing fat) I didn't touch my camera most of the time so I have only a minute amount of photos taken.

What else.

I have homework undone.

Also I want to go to school tmr but I am not looking forward to physics cause I haven't done my physics homewrok boohoo.

And I hate my physics I cannot do a subject if I hate the teacher how how.

Oh and I got an old lady teacher for bio. I think I'll listen in bio class from now onwards cause like she just went for a surgery so I pity her and I think she's putting in her upmost effort to help us hence I will be sympathetic and be nice and pass my bio.

Since my chem is now quite stable I suppose, I think I'll like focus more on my other subjects.

Like Amath I hate this shit so much I LOVE math but thats only Emath. Amath is too hard for my brain to digest fml.

K goodnight I think you have read more than enough, you have a good sleep and bye.

Love,
Alina and I think updates will be very seldom now just like before.

Sunday, 6 January 2013

Taiwan Part 1

20th December 2012

Hi I went to Taiwan for holidays yes everyone knows that ooooh so yes I went there.
Ok it was cold yet hot omg I hate the temperature there its crazy.
One minute its freezing and the next, I'm drenching my clothes with perspiration.
Here are the airport pictures cause I only arrived in Taiwan the next day.
The pictures are like stuff I don't know see for yourself hahahahaa.
Oh my Ah Lian camwhore photo is below keke.